I say I forget!!!!!

How easy is it to let new people in your life, open up to them and then watch them go away? Not at all. So, what do you do? Not let them in at all, don't form any sort of attachment or bond with them? You certainly can't stop them from going. If they have to go, they will. Then how do you deal with it, or prevent it?

when people leave abruptly, over some issue or whatever reason it may be, its so difficult to deal with the pain of loss. But lets not mull over that. its a completely different discussion in itself. I want to consider the idea of knowing that you have to let go of someone in a matter of days, or months.

What do you do when you know that the friend or family member you were so close to, so attached to, will leave you in a matter of months? Obviously, it doesn't mean all shreds of communication will be broken between the two but then there is a possibility along with the surety that things won't be the same. If its a friend who is going off to some other state or country to study or someone changing school or a senior passing out of college< :) >. You know you would be totally crushed not being able to see those people everyday, not having them as a part of your everyday life. But then its inevitable. Nothing can be done to change this.

Do you distance yourself beforehand so it becomes easier later? Stop calling, texting(or at least bring it down a few notches)? Or do you make the best of whatever time is left? So you have good, happy memories for later?

Maybe I should just take the middle path and let things be the way they are. Deal with the things in the future in the future itself. These seemingly small issues can have a huge impact and I guess since I realise this, these questions keep popping up in my head all the time, sometimes at 5 in the morning!!!

I'll leave it to time, for now.

Letting Go

So, what does letting go mean? Forgetting about somethings? Giving up hope on things ever changing? Making peace with it? Even if these things happen does it mean you have let go or moved on?  I think its more than just being indifferent. And there are certain vestiges of attachment that still remain. the old habits you had, you just can't let go. Like saying certain things while signing off or keeping texts or old nicknames. No matter what, these things are hard to let go of.

Its like this, you know you don't care. you share this simple friendship. But then, you don't delete their texts like you delete everyone else's(barring a few ;)), you still pay more than the normal amount of attention to what they say, you devote more time and mind to what you say to them(probably cuz they are just smarter than you and you don't want to sound dumb. nevertheless). Why do you do that even though you are fine with it all?

Yes, true, some friends are always at a much special place than most and you do treat them better than the others. But you just feel it, that this is not because of the special place crap. This is at a completely different level!  a different thing all together. And you phone keeps buzzing at every text you get. Screaming at you that your message memory is full!!! Delete your texts! And you just can't delete them. These text are nothing special. They aren't funny or memorable like the rest of them. Just simple 'Hi's and 'Hello's. But you can't and won't delete them! WHY?

The fact of the matter is, they shouldn't mean anything to you. And in your head they don't, you know, when you think about it. But it happens. It does.

The good thing, I finally did get rid of them. The excess baggage! Just picked all of them and deleted them. Except one, the special one. At least now everyone is an equal in my inbox. Well, ALMOST. :)